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Waiting an hour
for line to die down,
Waiting for queens
to swallow my crown,
Nervous awareness
of people beside me,
The Aarons are rude
and can’t be inside me,
The Aarons are restless
inside of my pants,
The Aarons are separate
in this circumstance,
Each Aaron’s schedule
is packed and excited,
Yet sadly their plans
may keep us divided.
Written by Jason Wright
July 31, 2017
For Aaron and Aaron.
I haven’t heard
this music in ages,
Danced San Francisco
with Breakfast in Vegas,
Down underground
& you only live twice,
On New York play list
my life has been spliced.
Over the ground
it’s westward I’m stabbing,
Pimping my sneakers
which aren’t quite worth having,
Ditching the songs
in hope of return,
Lighting my way
with dead stars that burn.
Written by Jason Wright
July 31, 2017
Dancing ecstatic
on a Barrel of a Gun
until mariachi band boards the train
and hideous smelling woman’s back fat
covered in deceptive pink
is pressed between slats to assault,
scar, wound and torment
my once focused psyche.
Pig thing whines and runs
as NIN sings
about Year Zero.
Thank Trent! (with a silent Capital G)
Written by Jason Wright
July 31, 2017
Hands held to station
then a kiss for goodbye,
Emotion, sensation
or a beautiful lie?
But I’m not complaining:
Kill me fast…Kill me slow,
Hold me fast to the past
Hold me down or let go,
Shimmer of memory
as tears fall and flow,
Such aching hunger…
Such shaking need…
When I was younger
such things made me bleed…
Time to grow up…
Time!
Leave me be!
Written by Jason Wright
July 31, 2017
bad day for stomach
bad day for mind
haunted by ghosts
that I can’t leave behind
haunted by siblings
alive in my dreams
the girl keeps on drowning
and stripping in streams
and light is no comfort
nor poetry medley
life can’t be stopped
life always deadly
Written by Jason Wright
July 30, 2017
Training again…
Will nervousness end?
Hunger and thirst
that I can’t comprehend?
I stopped twice for both
but left empty handed.
Craving for more than
time had demanded.
Not making sense though
I strive through sensation…
Although I starve
and long for hydration.
Written by Jason Wright
July 30, 2017
I’m somewhere familiar;
I’m somewhere surprised…
A month ago walking
with tears in my eyes…
But pain of that moment
cannot touch me now…
The thought of that change
makes me smile somehow…
And it was a nightmare
that I couldn’t shake…
Yet it can’t touch me now
because I am awake.
Written by Jason Wright
July 28, 2017
The voice of sex
is hard to describe,
Can’t explain how
it squirms between thighs,
Can’t quantify
the subtle confection
which twenty years later
still stirs my erection.
It isn’t the lyrics…
It’s not the appearance;
such pretty covers
don’t cause interference
tween shoegaze dream-pop
and all else surrounds them:
Still feel the magic
from when I first found them…
Still feel the power…
Still lost in their sway…
Still dance to Crank
when I want to pray.
Written by Jason Wright
July 28, 2017
I’ve had adventures
and I have explored,
and I had achieved
every possible score,
but you’re taking me further;
you are the key…
Enslaved to desires:
you’re setting me free.
Written by Jason Wright
July 28, 2017
For Aaron
Skipping by Nero
was never intended
Stripping my intro
from man I befriended
And he tried to change her
but she never loved him
I wanted to tell her
that she should not scold him
Wanted connection
when I could not hold him
But Nero was damaged
by lack of affection
His eyes held the world
bereft of direction
The world burned to ashes
infected by pain
And the last of his tears
were lost in the rain
Written by Jason Wright
July 27, 2017