Judged

Confusing DILF picture
adds layer of lust
to bruising filth mixture;
betrayer of trust
who back in the past
when present was future,
through lack of the ask
cast gent as abuser.

*

Doctored exuberance
from strangest of men.

I was awkward pubescence
and patience by then.

My doctor was present
which deftly he used.

Doctor was pleasant
which left me confused.

More than one patient;
Jason inside me.

More than one statement
was latent inside me.

And doctor was plural;
what’s quizzically true
is that doctor was neural
but physical too.

More than one practice.
More than one patient.
More than one mattress.
More than one Jason.

Deranged dereliction
of duty imbued
with strange contradictions
that strangely are true.

Innocent action
or wholly obscene?

Fact that this fraction
unholy was clean.

With no penetration
in sterile space.

And no abdication
of crime or disgrace.

With no policed questions
the proctors undress me.

Priests at confessions;
the doctors molest me.

Doctors are judged
through initial neurology.

The awkward begrudged
judicial apology.

*

And DILF in the picture
looks back from the past
and I am not injured
but was I the last?

And was I the only
or was I just lucky?

With no testimony
at least I’m not bloody.

Written by Jason Wright
August 12, 2019

Struggle

Last night it rained
I slept in my blasphemy.

Woke up with pain
from dreams of my family.

Choked on the truth
as I ran to the freezer.

Spoke to my youth
who did nothing to please her.

Snuggled with ice
and disguised my not knowing.

Struggled to rise
and devise plan for growing.

Buckled with verbs
and humbled by breathing.

Struggled with words…
Struggled with meaning.

Written by Jason Wright
August 4, 2019

Taking a Moment

I’m making this rhyme
to fight what I squander.

Taking this time
to write and to ponder.

Grasping suggestions
condoned by the lawless.

Asking these questions
alone in my solace.

Alone in our room
we fill now with others.

Cologne from my groom
distilled from our summers.

History haunts me
for task is a demon.

Mystery wants me
to bask in my freedom.

But I make it hard
although it’s quite easy.

For I am the the starved
and I could fight greedy.

Could drown in the drink
and choke on the meaning.

Backdown what I think;
provoke quarantining.

Could flail to shake crimes
twitch slake my incense.

Could fail to make rhymes
which make any sense.

Could fail in bestowment
to get what I need.

So I’ll take this moment
to see I succeed.

Written by Jason Wright
August 4, 2019

Ex-cised Ex-citement

I spoke to my boyfriend
and three of my exes….

I broke through the wasteland
of various sexes…

Left message for fourth
with no one inside me…

Saddled and spurred
with no one to ride me.

Written by Jason Wright
August 2, 2019

Allowances

I want to kiss him
and taste of his lover.

I must abstain
if I want the other.

All taste the same;
the lie that I tell.

I know desire
will send me to Hell.

I want to read
and weep through the diction.

Allow me to breathe
and keep to the fiction.

Allow me to feel
all the lies that we tell.

Allow me to heal
and despise what we sell.

Allowances given.
Allowances taken.

From what is allowed
we may not awaken.

What is allowed
may infest us inside.

What is allowed
would best be denied.

Written by Jason Wright
August 2, 2019