Universal Victims

Last night’s
39 year old child slut
thickened my cock
with stories about seducing stepfather
to save sacrificial sisters before
sex party bareback orgies.

He tells me there’s no need for condoms
if I’m on PrEP…
he smiles at this
through piss stained teeth
as if I don’t remember that he’s poz
and has suffered countless infections,
although herpes, he has also confessed,
still terrifies him.

He’s not without his charm,
this not altogether foreign creation;
he stands as myth; a tall tale
of erotic urban legends.

But it’s his step-story which really makes me
question our reality.

Could this stranger be an alternate version of myself
from monster rat infested Surinam?

This is both too fantastical to be true,
and too close to the truth to not be questioned.

But our shared tragedy
is not truly identical.

Siblings of a kind,
our similar origin stories
are sadly, merely universal,
and not the horrific singular experience
of one fragmented individual.

The places we started are synonymous
and we have both arrived in the same location;
it is only our trajectories
which have truly separated us.

Written by Jason Wright
October 9, 2018

Not My Doormat

Off to Carol’s
in the haunted overcast imagery,
less shrouded by last night’s events –
unexpected, satisfying & yet
slightly disappointing.

Last night’s well planned RASH decisions,
with liquor, amyl nitrite and a lover’s hookup who’s
“too pure to be pink”…

Too kind.

Too sweet
to feed the craving dark.

Happy for them.
Completely unthreatened.
But afraid I may never find
what I seek.

Written by Jason Wright
October 2, 2018

Standing in the Small Room

He describes me
in terms he believes to be true.

Small.
Fast in my shorts.
Smaller than.

only I’m not…
and I never was,
not when it counted.

Only in dreams which recapture
my childhood.

Because it always comes back to childhood,
doesn’t it?

I’m still standing
in that stinging spray.

I never left that room,
and I don’t think I ever will.

That at least,
is one small victory.

Written by Jason Wright
October 2, 2018

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