B.I.O. of a Nameless Lover:

I met you…
millennial,
and we were so young.

You made me alive
and then left me stung.

I loved you for years
then we drifted apart.

Time heals all wounds
yet ripped us apart.

In twenty-eleven,
long after we met…

We randomly crashed
and then cashed in our debt…

But the lust that we shared
and for years we had held…

Was long past it’s date;
by a kiss we were quelled.

Impunity spared us
in memories wasted…

Like missed opportunity:
that’s how you tasted…

In October
bedroom / shower / stairwell…

First time we fucked
was bitter farewell…

Bitter and sweet
and fragrant and gleaming…

Our lust disappointed
compared to our dreaming…

Although we played
quite well in our fashion…

Eleven years time
had drained us of passion.

It was love and was sex
and was brutal and sadness…

Was whatever survived
and revived from our ashes.

And we never talked again
after that day…

You turned to leave
and then I moved away…

Now we never speak
for our love has been strictured…

And all I have left
now of us is our pictures.

Written by Jason Wright
October 28, 2013

For Anonymous: You know who you are and that’s quite enough.

PANIC

The pain continues
deep down inside me.

Unanswered questions
seek to divide me.

I’m falling apart
and there’s no one to catch me.

Go fuck yourself
and then cut me –
I’m free.

I can only see blood
as the drug takes it’s time.

But the knife hurts my friends
and it’s such a long crime.

The wounds heal in weeks
but the feelings stay bruised.

And why do this now
when I’ve already moved?

But the panic arises
when I feel that I’m caught.

And the pain still surprises
as my lessons are taught.

And I hate that he’s angry
and hurt and unspoken.

When I’m all of those things
and more: I am broken.

My insides are screaming
and I just don’t know why…

Why is this happening?
Is it because I survived?

They say that I’m strong…
They say that I’m brave…

But on days that we fight I am very afraid.

Written by Jason Wright
October 16, 2013

ANNIVERSARY

I struggle and shudder;
My heart starts to flutter…
The panic; it hits me in waves.

Overwhelmed in mere seconds;
Fear fills my existance:
my life could be spent here afraid.

But I strive to stay grounded;
my fears are unfounded;
I breathe and I center my being.

My world isn’t ending;
it’s love that is sending
me out from this world that I’m leaving.

I’m strong and I know this,
though life isn’t quite bliss,
My life is all that I’m living…

And though I’ve been hurting
what’s most disconcerting
is the act of never forgiving.

Written by Jason Wright
October 4, 2013

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