RECIDIVOUS

I met him that night when it couldn’t have mattered…
We had gone too far when it did –
(to be sure)…

For before we had ever spoken or thought,
we were lost to that darkness –
with never a cure.

His eyes bright with drunken
boyish wonder,

This frock coated gentleman
bathed in black light,
and filled with a sadness
that tore me asunder:

We shattered together
and splinted the night.

In the encounters that followed
we rescued each other
but we knew we would never be saved…

For there are no survivors
from the plague of desires;
not when both men are ripe to be craved.

Our dire bravery in ruinous pleasure;
this sickness that found us as brothers…
was doomed from the moment our eyes met each others’:
no cure for these lost hungry lovers.

Written by Jason Wright
April 28, 1999


For Dorian:

Who is far too delicious and urban an angel
to not inspire my mind or my dick.

Dear Friend:

The night that I met you –
you seemed so familiar…

An innocent…so vulgar,
like The Children I’ve Known.

I felt so nostalgic –
with weeping confessions,
your bloodletting questions
made me feel less alone.

The Children are gone now –
although I still breathe,

I know I can’t leave,
though my memories cry.

I think I now know how –
reflection might save me,
allow me to break free,
as long as I don’t die.

I dream of escape from –
the nightmares that haunt me,
that grim reaper taunts me,
this war without end.

On a night when the darkness –
will fall and embrace me,
and time will erase me,
I won’t have lived longer
than at least this

Dear Friend.

Written by Jason Wright
April 11, 1997


For Ian

Poetry Index

I’ve written at least a thousand poems over the years. Some of them might be good, but I’ll mostly leave that up to others to decide.

I often scribble things in notebooks and then leave them behind, so a lot of my work is never transcribed for the world to see or ar lost to time. I had reams of poetry on Facebook Notes, where they were unceremoniously deleted without my consent. Oh well. I should have kept better backup copies, but I’ve always sucked at that. Again, I’m very disorganized and that I had anything online at all is somewhat of a victory? At least people saw them. Anyways, I’m slowly giving all that I still have access to a home here, but it could take me a very long time. Forgive me.

Here’s a list of my poetry, listed by the date I published it, which is often the day that I wrote it, but occasionally differs.

1997:
04-11-97 DEAR FRIEND

1999:
04-28-99 RECIDIVOUS
09-17-99 KISSING THE GODDESS
10-01-99 GAYDAR

2000:
01-03-00 THE BOY FADES OUT
01-08-00 CURSED
01-09-00 BRIAN WAS HERE (2026 Edit)
02-03-00 A THORN FOR CORONATION
05-06-00 OUT IN THE OPEN

2001:
12-31-01 IAN IS DEAD

2002:
08-28-02 IN THE DEEP END

2006:
06-16-06 A LIGHT AMONG MONSTERS

2008:
07-25-08 MYSTERY OF PRESTON

2011:
05-11-11 THE PROMISE OF LOVE
05-31-11 MAY 31, 2011
07-04-11 JULY 4, 2011
07-21-11 WEEKEND / WEAKENED
08-14-11 ART IS A MIRROR
08-26-11 WISHING
09-08-11 CONFLUENCE
09-13-11 RETURN
09-20-11 I WANT TO FUCK YOU
09-20-11 MOMENTOUS MOMENTS
09-21-11 UNDER CONSTRUCTION
09-24-11 THE WRITING
10-10-11 SHADOWS AND A VISION
10-12-11 SUDDEN STRANGERS
10-16-11 TWO DAYS WILL BE TEN
10-20-11 CIGARETTES FOR DAVID
10-25-11 FOUR DAYS ENCHANTED
10-27-11 HATRED ESCAPE
10-27-11 THE OPPOSITE OF LOVE
11-05-11 THE COWBOY AND THE PRIEST

2012:
10-03-12 NIGHT OF TEARS
10-04-12 IGNORANT CHILD
10-04-12 SMOKING. IN KITCHEN.
10-05-12 RELIGIOUS IRONY
10-15-12 WOULD BE ASSASSINS
12-24-12 TO DREAM OF KEYS

2013:
01-04-13 A CRUCIFIX (OF POPSICLE-STICKS)
03-01-13 ZOMBIE
03-05-13 LIFE AND SURVIVAL
03-05-13 THE JUNGLE OF TRUTH
03-09-13 TORTURE
03-10-13 LOVE LESSONS
04-13-13 FALLING TO PIECES
06-19-13 UNBECOMING
09-23-13 THE PRISON OF SHAME
10-04-13 ANNIVERSARY
10-16-13 PANIC
10-28-13 B.I.O. OF A NAMELESS LOVER

2014:
01-21-14 DOOMED
02-20-14 SNOWMEN
02-28-14 WOOD AND THUNDER
04-30-14 RELINQUISHMENT
06-19-14 I HEAR YOU
08-12-14 40
09-18-14 FREE
10-05-14 THE ORANGE OF OCTOBER
10-05-14 INDIGO IS BLUE
10-18-14 THREE IN THE CORNER
10-20-14 3 YEARS
11-29-14 NOT ONLY LONELY
12-15-14 DISCONNECTED

2015:
01-08-15 NORTHBOUND (NSFW)
02-13-15 4 VALENTINES: FLOWER FOR AARON
03-29-15 WALKING AWAY
05-19-15 THE KISS
06-04-15 MYSTERY OF TINA
07-09-15 OUR CONVERSATION
07-17-15 FOR A FEW HOURS
11-05-15 FRAGMENTS OF MAGIC

2016:
06-22-16 CAPTURED
08-04-16 FOREVER VOYEUR
08-04-16 LOST
12-24-16 THE CHRISTMAS WISH

2017:
02-27-17 SHOWERED
03-16-17 THE VIEW UPSTAIRS
04-11-17 OUR ASSHOLES ARE NOT DIFFERENT*
05-09-17 IN THE WINDOW TO THE SOUL
05-25-17 THE ALL SEEING I
06-14-17 BLURRED LINES
06-21-17 SCRUFFY
06-21-17 THE LION SINGS OPERA
06-26-17 THE BEAUTIFUL ONE
06-26-17 PETER PAN SYNDROME
06-27-17 LOSING MY MIND
06-28-17 FIVE YEARS
06-28-17 VERSIFICATION
06-28-17 FORCED OPEN RELATIONSHIP
06-28-17 BEDTIME STORY
06-29-17 BREATHE THROUGH IT
06-29-17 QUESTIONS
06-30-17 THE ENEMY OF LOVE
06-30-17 INNOCENCE LOST
07-02-17 FASHION VICTIM
07-09-17 EPILOGUE
07-09-17 LESSONS
07-09-17 AT A GLANCE
07-09-17 PARTY OF THREE
07-09-17 AARON SQUARED
07-11-17 PROSTRATED
07-20-17 INFINITESIMAL
07-20-17 DELUSIONS OF INNOCENCE
07-21-17 START OF DARKNESS
07-24-17 RUNNER WITHOUT A CAUSE
07-25-17 THE HUNGRY HOOKER
07-25-17 FORMATIVE WORDS
07-25-17 BATTLE SCARRED
07-26-17 PLAYING THE GAME
07-26-17 BEDTIME
07-26-17 JULY OF DECEMBER
07-26-17 WEEKEND FRIENDS
07-26-17 SEXY TRAITOR
07-26-17 A CUCKOLD REMEMBERS
07-27-17 A KISS ON THE WINDOW
07-27-17 “ALL I USE”
07-27-17 ME & BILL & BEN & STEVE
07-27-17 LIKE CATS & DOGS
07-28-17 THE IMPOSSIBLE
07-28-17 CATHERINE WHEEL
07-28-17 SMILED ARRIVAL
07-30-17 FLUID REGRESSION
07-30-17 BROTHER / SISTER / MR.
07-31-17 TIME BOMB
07-31-17 TRAIN ROBBERY
07-31-17 THIS IS SHE
07-31-17 PLAYER
07-31-17 THE AARONS
07-31-17 JAM
07-31-17 EXPLOSIVE ATTRACTION
07-31-17 SEVENTH DROWNING
08-03-17 JENNIFER’S BIRTHDAY
08-03-17 BUSY
08-04-17 OTHERS REQUIRED
08-04-17 BEMUSEMENT
08-05-17 SABBATICAL
08-05-17 BLACK LAKE
08-06-17 THE CONSCIENTIOUS BETRAYER
08-06-17 ODE TO OPERATOR
08-09-17 DINOSAUR
08-09-17 I SAW SPARKS
08-09-17 KEEP OUT
08-10-17 THE COURAGE THAT YOU GAVE ME
08-10-17 FIRE BIRTHDAY
08-10-17 POST TRAUMATIC FLASH
08-10-17 FOUND
08-15-17 I KNOW WHY…
08-17-17 SIRENS
08-19-17 THE NIGHT I MET SUPERMAN
08-21-17 EFFORTLESS
08-22-17 UNKISSABLE
08-23-17 NEW TESTAMENT
08-23-17 TARGET ALIGHTED
08-24-17 CODA
08-29-17 DICHOTOMY OF NEED
09-02-17 L.J.
09-02-17 DESTRUCTION OF SAME
09-12-17 DEVASTATION
09-12-17 JASON WRITE
09-18-17 INCOGNIZANT ADMIRER
09-20-17 THE PARTY THAT WASN’T
09-27-17 DRUNKEN SCRIBBLES AFTER MIDNIGHT
09-30-17 NIGHTMARE CONFECTIONS
10-01-17 DELIRANTE (HE’S GONE)
10-23-17 ROMEO TROYE: THE COMPANY OF TRAINS
10-24-17 WHAT DID I MISS?
10-24-17 FREEDOM 2000
10-24-17 SSSSSHHHHHhhhhh…..
10-25-17 FRAGMENTS OF RYAN: SAVANNAH INTERRUPTED
10-26-17 KNOWING WADSWORTH
10-28-17 SMILING DANDELIONS
10-29-17 PRAYER OF THE POST TRAUMATIC
10-31-17 TRINITY
11-02-17 NOVEMBER SUBWAY RANDOMNESS
11-04-17 WATCHING THE GAME
11-04-17 MEANING < MORE
11-04-17 SLEEPLESS MUSINGS
11-05-17 DREAM LOVER
11-07-17 THE BOY WHO DISAPPEARED
11-07-17 AGGRESSIVE REGRESSION
11-08-17 THIS DIABOLICAL DRAMA
11-21-17 EVERYONE IS WAITING
11-21-17 SIMON’S TRUTH
11-28-17 UNANSWERED HORROR
11-28-17 ACCOUNTABLE
11-28-17 PROFILE
12-03-17 TIGERS & BEARS
12-03-17 MOTHER HYDRA
12-03-17 STAINED GLASS FOREST
12-05-17 VISIONS OF LOSS
12-15-17 SALVATION ENDETH AFTER NOTHING
12-30-17 ALL OUR TOMORROWS

2018:
01-10-18 THESE QUESTIONS
01-10-18 PLEASE FUCK ME OVER
01-10-18 SEE YOU NEXT TUESDAY
01-14-18 RNSRK
01-16-18 DREAMS OF MY FATHERS
01-17-18 CYPHER
01-17-18 MY REVERENCE
01-18-18 BLOOD IS TWICE THE LIFE
01-18-18 COMPANIONS
01-30-18 MULTIFACETED
01-31-18 OKIE
02-13-18 UNPREPARED
02-13-18 ANGELS
02-13-18 HIS MONSTERS
02-13-18 GAME NIGHT
02-13-18 DIVERSITY
02-13-18 BILL & BEN (IT’S THEM AGAIN)
02-27-18 THE SAME DEEP WATER
02-27-18 THE BALCONY SCENE
02-27-18 GINGER ROOT TEA
03-06-18 QUEER STREET
03-06-18 DRUGS ARE QUICK
03-06-18 DARK CONGRESS LOVER
03-10-18 OVER WRIGHT
03-19-18 STATE OF INDEPENDENCE PART IV
03-22-18 SEAN’S JUNK
03-22-18 AD HOC
04-05-18 THE TRUTH THAT WE CRAVED
04-05-18 DISASTER BE THY NAME
04-09-18 FAWN
04-09-18 A TEMPTED ISLE OF VIEW
04-10-18 DISCONNECT
04-10-18 QUIRKY PERVERSIONS
04-11-18 ACCESS DERIDE
04-11-18 GENTLEMAN CALLERS
04-12-18 IN THE SHADOW
04-12-18 THE POLE VAULT
04-12-18 TRANSFORMATIVE MOMENTS
04-15-18 48 RANDOM
04-19-18 CETACEAN SADNESS
04-19-18 THE WHALE TRILOGY
04-30-18 MARY POPPERS
04-30-18 OUR TIME IN THE DESERT
05-20-18 REFLECTION
05-26-18 STARVED
05-30-18 INVISIBLE MEN
05-30-18 EVERYBODY WANTS
05-30-18 HOLLOW PROMISES
05-31-18 MAKING TIME
06-07-18 TRAVESTY
06-09-18 PERSECUTED
06-13-18 THREE IMAGINARY MEN
06-21-18 INDICATION
06-25-18 THE STRAIN
06-26-18 TOXIC FIGURES
06-26-18 CLOCKSUCKER
06-26-18 JASON DISASSEMBLED
07-02-18 EXIGENT
07-02-18 CLEANSING SILENCE
07-02-18 SILENT WITNESS
07-02-18 AMERICAN IDIOT
07-02-18 TWO TWENTY SEVEN
07-04-18 FOR THE DISTURBED
07-05-18 SKIN DOCTOR
07-15-18 DISHONESTY
07-15-18 THE WICKED SAMARITAN
07-20-18 DISTANCE BETWEEN US
07-20-18 EFFECTUAL VULNERABILITY
07-21-18 START OF DARKNESS
07-24-18 SAFETY IN NUMBERS
07-24-18 DAY OF THE DREAM
07-29-18 THE JASONS
07-29-18 WRITING LIKE RAZORS
07-30-18 THE DAY AFTER DREAM
07-31-18 TO THE DEVIL A SON
08-07-18 SLICE OF LIFE
08-07-18 SELF MEDICATING
08-22-18 PLAYOFF
08-22-18 EMERGENCE
08-24-18 LESS THAN THIRTY-SIX
08-26-18 UNFAITHFUL INVERSION
08-28-18 SUGAR FOR THE PILL
09-11-18 ASSORTED SEPTEMBER SCRIBBLES
09-11-18 CRUSHING FRANKLIN
09-15-18 MY EMPTY INSANITY
09-20-18 …THAT AARONS WELL
09-26-18 THE WAY HE SCREAMS
10-02-18 REDACTED (A.K.A. EXPERIMENT #001)
10-02-18 INFERNAL INFECTION
10-02-18 STANDING IN THE SMALL ROOM
10-02-18 NOT MY DOORMAT
10-06-18 THE WORDS
10-09-18 TRY AGAIN
10-09-18 WRITING ACROSS THE TRANSPARENT SKY
10-09-18 UNIVERSAL VICTIMS
10-09-18 “LOVE IS A DEMON”
11-05-18 ON THE WAY TO COFFEE
11-08-18 MUSINGS ON AVATARS OF WOMANHOOD
11-08-18 THE POETRY TABLE
11-20-18 NIGHTMARE ASYLUM
11-20-18 A FEAR IN THE STRIFE
11-20-18 DECOMPOSITION
11-21-18 THE ACID TEST
11-21-18 I THINK I HAVE SOMETHING
11-28-18 UNORTHODOX
11-28-18 TODAY’S PITHY MANTRA
11-29-18 THE UNDERLAND BATHHOUSE DE JOUR
11-29-18 “DE-CRUCIFY THE ANGEL”
11-29-18 PYRE FOR THE SOUL
11-29-18 LIFE AMONGST MEMORIES
11-29-18 TOY SOLDIERS
11-29-18 WRONG HEAD DENIED
11-29-18 SHROUDED ENLIGHTENMENT
11-29-18 THE TRANSCENDENTAL PURGATION OF CHRISTIAN DE GRÉ’S WALLET
12-11-18 COFFEE IS CRIMINAL
12-13-18 SPECTRAL SUBWAY STRANGER
12-15-18 CASUAL

2019:
01-17-19 BELATED AMUSEMENTS
01-17-19 DRAMATICALLY TRUE
01-23-19 HEROIC DUPLICITY
01-24-19 EVERYONE
01-24-19 SPLIT INFINITY
01-24-19 SCRAPS OF HUMANITY
01-24-19 A STRETCH OF DARK
02-13-19 THE DECISION
02-19-19 MANNY
02-23-19 THE MORNINGS
02-27-19 PROM QUEEN
02-27-19 CLOSED EYES OPENED
02-27-19 WHORE FRIENDING ANGEL
02-27-19 GHOSTS & DEMONS
03-01-19 THE ONE THAT STOPS HIM FROM FEELING
03-17-19 TICK TICK TOCK
03-21-19 PULP
03-21-19 WORD PLAY CATHARSIS
03-26-19 THAT MOMENT IN THE REEDS
03-31-19 FLESH & BLOOD DREAMS
04-01-19 DECADENCE
04-10-19 LIGHTNING THROUGH MY VEINS
04-13-19 BROKEN BEAUTY
04-14-19 CRY ME A RIVER
04-14-19 DANCING PAST
04-17-19 REACTIONARY
05-23-19 DEPTH BEFORE ESTRANGEMENT
07-09-19 THE YEAR AFTER DREAM
07-24-19 CONTRADISTINCTION, FEAR & NUMBERS
07-24-19 COUNTERPOINT
07-25-19 THE MYSTERY OF LUST
08-02-19 FRAGMENTS OF AN AUGUST NIGHT
08-02-19 ALLOWANCES
08-02-19 EX-CISED EX-CITEMENT
08-03-19 /JƏRK/
08-03-19 GIBBERISH
08-03-19 FOR JASON MUST NOT KNOW
08-03-19 THE LAWLESS
08-04-19 TAKING A MOMENT
08-04-19 STRUGGLE
08-09-19 FILTHY RICH
08-09-19 THE LONELY CARNIVAL
08-12-19 JUDGED
08-15-19 THE WOMAN IN SPADES
08-15-19 GOOD ENOUGH
09-12-19 RETURNING TO FLESH
09-12-19 GOSPEL
09-19-19 DOCTORED RAFFLE
09-19-19 HEARTBREAK AND SICKNESS
09-30-19 RIDE
10-01-19 WOMEN
10-02-19 ALWAYS
10-07-19 TRYING TIMES
10-07-19 JANET LYNN
10-12-19 THE MAN (BETWIXT THIRTYSOMETHINGS)
10-12-19 AARON IMPRESSION
10-14-19 INUNDATED ELEGY
10-14-19 SUBJECTIVE COMPLETION
10-15-19 AS THEY SAY
10-21-19 THE PROCESSION IS OVER
10-26-19 DANIEL’S PROCESSION
10-31-19 THE POWERS OF CHARLIE BOTTOM
10-31-19 WHEN BENJAMIN BLUSHES
11-11-19 THE KING IS DEAD

2020:
02-06-20 SURFICIAL
02-11-20 SMOKE & ABUSE
02-23-20 SEX AT SIXTEEN
05-14-20 THE TEARS OF THE LIZARD

2021:
09-04-21 FROM JULY TO SEPTEMBER

2022:
02-22-22 “LOVE WILL TEAR US APART”
08-21-22 THE BRINK

2025:
01-25-25 THE IMAGINARY THEY
02-14-25 WHEN CRIMINALS LEAD US
05-15-25 REMEMBERING
10-05-25 WE ARE NOT SAFE
11-23-25 (10 x 2³)

2026:
01-08-26 THIS IS JANUARY 8
02-27-26 FEBRUARY 27, 2026
03-21-26 THE THIRD CONVERSION
04-25-26 “AND GO INTO THE WEST”
05-07-26 SPARKING THE DRAGONS
05-20-26 FACEBOOK
06-14-26 RACHEL’S TRUTH: AMY’S LAUGHTER
07-16-26 RECENT EVENTS
07-24-26 AND NOW HE ISN’T
08-07-26 IMAGINED ATTRACTION
08-08-26 THE MASOCHIST’S DREAM
08-09-26 DIVISIONAL SHADOWS
08-09-26 IF ONLY I’D KNOWN…
08-11-26 THE MONSTER
08-18-26 IN MY EYES
08-20-26 THE SECRETS OF LUST

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