I’ve had adventures
and I have explored,
and I had achieved
every possible score,
but you’re taking me further;
you are the key…
Enslaved to desires:
you’re setting me free.
Written by Jason Wright
July 28, 2017
For Aaron
The Impossible
“all I use”
my headphones are broken
already ripped open
could not find the cloth
and I’m running late
don’t know that I want this
can I stand here dressed like this?
goth boy is sweating
panic on train
but breathe and get through this
you know you can do this
you just have to break from
your mind’s lonely cage
I’ll dry and arrive there
Jamie will not care
get it all done
and you’ll be all the rage
Written by Jason Wright
July 27, 2017
A Kiss on the Window
Jeff was my lover
when we watched “The Lover”
a novel I’ve read
a handful of times.
I have the music
I chose to live through it
it can make me sad
to think of those times.
The smell of him naked
that memory faded
can often be vivid
when he lingers there.
He came here to see me
L.A. to N.Y.C.
“Black is the color
of my true love’s hair”.
He was here and I saw him
his smile was awesome
and our kiss goodnight
was a ghost lost in time…
I longed to devour
him there in his tower
but I walked away then
from what once was mine.
And maybe he’ll miss this
or maybe dismiss this
my words as a candy kiss
swoon of a child.
But I mean what I’m writing
still find him exciting
no point now in hiding
Jeff left me beguiled.
Written by Jason Wright
July 27, 2017
Bedtime
Ready for bed
and yet I am writing.
I’d rather be sleeping
so why am I fighting?
Maybe because I’m asleep and I’m dreaming
of writing awake as I’m quietly screaming:
GO! TO! SLEEP!
Written by Jason Wright
July 26, 2017
Playing the Game
He turns to reveal
the pass he has made,
So bad he’s made Vlad
stand erect without aid,
And we wait for response
as I yearn for the trade…
The words go unheard
but once read they degrade.
That’s what I needed.
That’s what I wanted.
I need to be teased.
I need to be taunted.
I need to be damaged
and drowned in their piss.
But in losing the game
I am winning in bliss.
But it’s more than just that;
it’s more complicated…
It’s more than a need
to be masturbated.
The rules are a treasure;
a pleasure inflamed…
When we must explore…
Our lives and more…
We gamble and score
in the shame we call game.
Written by Jason Wright
July 26, 2017
Formative Words
A month ago broken
yet we still exist.
Those words that were spoken
by Aaron persist
In shaping our future;
his words were not wasteful.
His words were a cougar
that fed on the faithful.
His words were confession
to me as his priest.
His words were a question
to my ears bequeathed.
His words begged an answer;
I wept as I gave it.
Our love had a cancer
but we sought to save it.
He by admission
and I by permission…
We both fought to save us
from death by attrition…
The pain from his past
held our love in a casket…
For future transgression
he begged with a question
I responded when asked it:
“You need it? Then have it.”
The distance between us
once traveled would heal us,
And words that were spoken
could not now conceal us,
And so we embraced
what would now become real,
Free from the pain that
we both had to feel,
Free to make choices
denied before changes,
To use our own voices
describing new strangeness,
The action is called;
we respond to sensation…
The laws of attraction
beyond transformation.
Written by Jason Wright
July 25, 2017
The Hungry Hooker
Doubling down
on singles and triples,
Struggling; drowning
on past participles,
Juggling clowns
while writing in riddles,
A whore wanting more
is hardly original.
So pay me no heed
while I bleed and I splutter,
Or pay me with sweetness;
with penis (and rubber),
We all know my weakness
technique motherfucker…
Lets lose ourselves
in the shells of each other.
Written by Jason Wright
July 25, 2017
Runner Without a Cause
Our love like a flower
who’s petals you’ve bruised.
You listened to madness;
refused to hear truth.
You filled me with sadness
for love had been soured.
You looked like an angel
but ran like a coward.
Accepted gift horse and
betrayed with belief.
Did not question source;
just attacked in your grief.
You lashed out with lies
fed to you by phantoms.
Couldn’t meet eyes
as you gave in to tantrums.
Attacked with untruths
sold as truth without cause.
You deny my response;
you must know yours is flawed.
You bought into farce
but refuse explanation.
I will not be broken
by your devastation.
I’ve loved you for years
and that won’t go away.
Even with all of the hate
that you spray.
I won’t fall to fear,
to anger or malice.
I won’t be a fool
or be rude or be callous.
Won’t be overwhelmed
by your venomous exit.
Won’t disavow the
love of the desperate.
Won’t drown in pain
although there are tears.
I won’t chase a man
who’s been running for years.
I will not forget as
you shun and run from me.
I will not regret
what you’ve painted as ugly.
That you could believe
when I’ve loved you for ages…
That you could be mean
without cause is outrageous…
And our perfect kiss
which you’ve lost in cliché…
I will not give chase
when you’ve thrown that away.
Yet my love is not lost
in spite of the burns…
And I’ll leave a light on
in the hope you’ll return…
For I’ve done nothing wrong
despite point of view…
And you’ve no need to run
because love remains true.
Written by Jason Wright
July 24, 2017
Infinitesimal
The sweetest of cruelties
behind lying eyes.
They never suspect
my favorite disguise.
They wouldn’t believe
that a man such as me
could crave such deceptions
to set myself free.
They’re quick to betray
for the sake of some cum.
They never suspect
that I’m having fun.
They see tiny victim;
laugh and point fingers.
But it’s my love that lasts;
my smile that lingers.
Written by Jason Wright
July 20, 2017
Aaron Squared
Two men tormented
by men who are blind.
Two men prevented
from men they must find.
Two men inside me
who I may find care in…
Despise
the unwise
who would dare
to scare Aaron.
These parts of me
named
should not feel
ashamed.
Each of us beautiful; one and the same.
And I may be biased
in my manifesto…
But Aaron should listen
because Jason says so.
Written by Jason Wright
July 9, 2017