Star Wars: Maul – Shadow Lord – BALD JASON'S GAY GOTH BOY BLOG

April 28, 2026

“There’s more to life than death.”

I didn’t go to bed after the last entry. I was tired but I was very hungry; I resisted eating or sleeping for some reason. I worked on my website a bit more. I uploaded 12 more collages in the photos section. I should have been putting all the photos I’ve used for these collages in a folder somewhere so I would know what I’ve used so far because I’m going to forget. I mean, I’m already having trouble. But I don’t have anyone to blame but myself.

Eventually I realized that I would need to have something to eat and I would need to sleep. I reheated a slice of pizza while I got ready for bed, and I did watch an episode of Star Wars: Mau – Shadow Lord (S01E07 “Chapter 7: Call to Oblivion”). I was sort of doing all of this at once, but quickly realized this episode of the series was much more intense than previous entries, with characters dying left and right and massive fights between Star Wars icons. It was great! But just like previous installments, the ending was frustrating. This season tells a single story, and the episode endings are less like cliffhangers, than someone randomly shutting the TV off. I hate it. I would recommend binging it but I can’t wait. I do look forward to rewatching this series someday when I can view it the way I feel it should be, and as I’ve said before, this will likely continue a full re-watch of the entire The Clone Wars / The Bad Batch & the Star Wars Tales series, which has just continued to grow into something very special.

I momentarily considered watching the next episode of the Maul series but knew this was a bad idea. I went to bed. As I was getting ready for bed I had a coughing fit, which sometimes happens when acid irritates my throat. But I didn’t mind as it gave me an excuse to take a swig of cough syrup. For a long time, I would take a sip every night. I don’t do that anymore and I try to avoid taking pain killer, despite having a lot of migraines. But I didn’t want to go to bed and wake Aaron with my coughing. The cough syrup helped and because I’ve not had any in a long time it knocked me out, which was lovely. I slept for 8 hours, waking up feeling rested and comfortable.

My skin has been really flaky lately. I don’t use a lot of products on my skin, aside from sunblock, because anything meant to help my skin actually seems to do the reverse. I breakout in rashes or acne. It’s terrible. I used to hate my skin. But I think that whatever weird chemistry that happens there has helped my skin stay hydrated. It’s not perfect. My pores are clogged for sure, but I also don’t have a lot of issues otherwise. Now, this has changed a bit as I’ve aged. I’ve had some minor skin problems which I know how to take care of. As for the new issue, I hadn’t honestly given it a lot of thought, but I remembered that I had this old charcoal face mask that I had tried years ago and it has helped a bit. So I shaved and showered, applied the mask for 30 minutes and then scrubbed that off. And again, for now it seems like it has helped. The mask is black and on my pale skin it almost looks like I’m wearing Black Face – as if having a shaved head didn’t make me look racist as it is! I do like how the mask looks on my skin though. My impression is that if it were purple it would remind me of the 1960’s Batgirl costume. lol

I was going to go for a walk but it looks like it’s going to rain. I tried calling my grandmother last night and this afternoon but she didn’t answer. I hope she’s okay. I’ll try again in a bit. I should probably have something to eat as it’s now been nearly 12 hours since I had that slice of pizza.

April 15, 2026April 15, 2026

Daredevil has been Born Again!

I woke up early yesterday morning. I watched Star Wars: Maul – Shadow Lord S01E03 (“Chapter 3: Whispers in the Unknown”) and started S01E04 (“Chapter 4: Pride and Vengeance”) before getting distracted by a stray thought about how my sister Janice recently told me that she doesn’t enjoy Star Wars much, which I thought was odd. But then I remembered that I didn’t like it much either until I started reading the books. And then watching The Clone Wars and the other shows as they were released and I think that’s key for me, because that’s where all the character development really happens. I mean, there are so many background characters who just die without being named on screen in “Revenge of the Sith” but The Clone Wars develops all of those characters so losing them because far more tragic. That kind of thing really helped. So I started making a list for her of the things to watch, which I worked on for like 40 minutes before stopping, realizing that my sister would never watch this stuff! lol

I returned to bed soon after to cuddle with Aaron before he left for work. Later, I took some photos with my once fancy, but 20 year old camera. I went to therapy. I read the news. I walked to Little Caesars for a pizza. I talked on the phone with my cousin Katie, my friend Mark Adams and finally my grandmother. Later I snapped a few more pictures and started getting ready for bed. I still haven’t gone to the bedroom though because my sleeping medication hasn’t really been working well the last few nights which means I need to give it a break. It will good for me. But it also means I can’t just fall asleep quickly and so I’m awake. So I watched the new Daredevil episode.

Daredevil: Born Again. Season 1 was a mixed bag which I felt was due to creative issues behind the scenes, so I cut them some slack. I was assured that Season 2 would be the series at its best, only to have the first 3 episodes leave me disappointed again. But episodes 4 & 5 have been incredible! These 2 episodes have easily been the best of the entire series to date. I cried. There are 3 more episodes this season and Season 3 is filming now, likely to be released about a year from now.

I have the Star Wars episode to finish. I have 2 more episodes in Season 1 of The Lord of the Rings: The Rings of Power. I have one more season to watch of His Dark Materials. Euphoria Season 3 started on Sunday but I think I might wait and binge that when it’s finished. There are many shows that I’ve started and not finished, which I’d like to, it has just all piled up now over years that I don’t know that I ever will get to a lot of it.

I read the news out of Cinemacon. So many release dates announced. So much movie news in the last 48 hours. I love this stuff. And Disney is closing out the convention on Thursday, likely with news of “Avengers: Doomsday”, so I’m looking forward to that.

But I am actually getting tired. I may try to sleep.

April 7, 2026April 7, 2026

“Top Ten in the Charts of Pain”

Yesterday was productive. I got tons done on the new website. It’s fun and a bit of an obsession right now. It can be relaxing but I have to remind myself to step away from the computer and get other things done and to take breaks so that I don’t get totally burnt out.

I got away yesterday for a not-so-fun reason. Aaron was in pain and told me he was going to CityMD. I had just eaten so I needed to sit still for a little bit but soon dressed and joined him at the clinic, which is just across the road from us. They let me back to see him just as he was about to have an EKG, which appeared normal, but they instructed us to watch out for certain signs and if we see any of those we are heading to an emergency room. He’s taken the day off of work today.

Later I watched the first 2 episodes of the new Star Wars: Maul – Shadow Lord series. It’s a little slow, as this is a new beginning, but I enjoyed most of it. We know Maul of course, and we’ve met Rook Kast in passing, but most of the characters and the world is new, so I’m okay with it taking a little time to get going. I wish the entire series was available now, because I would have binged it over a couple of days. I’m curious to see where this goes…

My gripes are few. The new world, the planet Janix, looks so similar to Coruscant, that if I hadn’t been paying attention, I’d have thought that was the setting. It makes sense that Maul would be on a different world as he’s avoiding entanglements with the Empire, but most worlds in Star Wars look at least a little different, and this looks exactly the same. Maybe there were visual cues that I missed. I also didn’t like the ends of the episodes. The cliffhanger moments make you want to watch the next one, which is the point, but again, if this was released all at once I’d be happier with that model. And then the pace, as I said, is a bit slow at times – or, more accurately, the faster paced stuff often didn’t matter to me, because I didn’t feel very invested in most of the new characters. There are already signs that this will likely change fairly quickly, but for now it feels problematic; trailers and posters have revealed later appearances by several known characters that will likely help with this.

I think this might be great in time. I’ve been wanting to re-watch The Clone Wars for several years now, not having seen most of it in over a decade, and with The Bad Batch and the Star Wars: Tales shorts in place, this could all be a lot of fun. But I’m currently watching so much stuff that this will have to wait for now. Hopefully someday!

Later I also continued on with my first time through The Lord of the Rings: The Rings of Power (S01E06 “Udûn”). I hadn’t watched any episodes in over a week and was worried I’d have lost interest again. I’ve tried twice before to get into this series but this time has been far more rewarding and I’m 2 episodes further than I’ve ever been. And this episode was fantastic, filled with multiple events that I had anticipated but had assumed would happen in the season finale but we still have 2 more episodes to go! There were also several surprises and my theories about this or that character are developing and changing with nearly every episode. I don’t know why it has taken me so long to get into this series but I’m really glad that I have. It’s also nice knowing that I have 10 more episodes as Season 2 aired over a year ago, and that Season 3 will include a time jump, which suggests that Season 2 will have an ending that won’t drive me crazy. I hope. lol

I only meant to stay up a little to see if I could update a few more items on my site but I ended up staying up past 4 am, listening to From the Choirgirl Hotel, the Tori Amos album released in May of 1998 and which I often listened to when building the first iteration of this website in the fall of that year. I eventually had to call it quits after working to exhaustion – and I knew I needed to sleep before my therapy appointment today. I slept for 6 hours. I had relatively intense dreams but they’re finally fading now. I woke with a migraine, which hasn’t happened much lately, for which I’m very grateful. I had a smoothie (with coffee) and took a small dose of pain medication.