The keys to locked doors set me free, allowing me to traverse a life that will not break me today, despite micro instances of bloodshed behind closed eyes.
The twin chasms of lust and betrayal may never find the balance that I crave but I put on a brave face, open closed eyes and look deep into the darkened faces of my tormentors, even as I feel my way toward illumination by way of my blissed out cock jutting confidently before me; serving as my divining rod to truth, my directional arrow, my compass arm… keeping me on course, keeping me honest, keeping me open in a world which seeks to close my eyes forever.
After all of night’s magic has faded away, dwindling down to nothing but the glisten of dew beneath the cool dawning sun, that cruel spray of light will rip lovers apart.
For when lovers cease to be enraptured, fumbling toward clothing endowed with doubt, laced with fear, rejection and shame…
beneath the surface where we could not see one another through that reflective prismatic membrane… down beneath waves in an ocean of time.
Our meeting was not the frothy crash one might expect between two long separate bodies; more a subtle swallowing
of pride, an exceptional chance encounter between worlds, between men, emptied and refilled and accepted – we drank each other down.
you are my sustenance
you have long nourished my soul in a calming deluge of possibility, a commingling of creation and interpretation – your intoxicating mixture of unspeakable talent with benevolent decency, such rare treasure
is my honor and privilege to behold and to bathe in, to witness all that lies beneath
all that others seldom see.
How could anyone observe such strength and such frailty, such passion –
Who could spy such longing and not find themselves quickened?
Such stimulation can rob mortal men of decisional capacity.
I had no choice but to love you, you see…
And yet I find that I decided all the same.
I chose to embrace the experience of you, to appreciate it for what it was and what you were, I opted to be vulnerable and to be strong, and then finally I agreed to follow that untrodden path wherever it might lead.
You are the decision that has changed my life forever.
You are the choice that I made that I have never regretted.
