“Don’t You Think It’s Time for Bed?”

I’ve been meaning to write the last few days but I’ve gotten a bit behind. I did major updates on the photos and viewing orders, and we’ve been busy with other things. I’d probably skip this tonight as well, but we’re going to have visitors this weekend and our schedule is packed. I don’t know if I’ll be able to do everything that Aaron has planned but I’ll try.

Back to our Michigan trip. On Sunday (June 28, 2026), we visited my maternal grandmother (Frances), my youngest maternal aunt (Marge), and my older sister (Janice), with cameos by a couple of cousins, Marge’s oldest son (Michael) and his son (Dajr). I feel like I’m describing all this rather oddly, but I’m really tired – so forgive me.

Grandma told us the sweetest thing before we left. When I met Aaron in late 2011 he was preparing for a February concert, The Broadway We Love, which featured him singing all these Broadway tunes for charity. There was a cd of the concert, which I gave to my grandmother and I knew she listened to it at the time, but she told Aaron that she still listens to it and that when he sings about cellophane, she rocks her shoulders back and forth and it makes her feel good. She doesn’t really follow musical theater, but I knew right away she was talking about the song “Mr. Cellophane” from the 1975 American musical “Chicago”. It makes me smile every time I think about it.

We left around 5:30 to meet our friend Jessie and my oldest Nephew Justin at Pizza House in Ann Arbor. Justin had never been there, which shocked me. We told him all sorts of stories about our adventures there in the past and the conversation in general was really great. Justin and Jesse are some of the most interesting people I know, and everyone was pleased with food, and the evening was lovely.

After dinner we went to Uplift to play some pool, unaware that they were hosting a drag event, so there were far more people that the previous time we went there. Pool was played. Drag was performed. We said goodnight to Jesse and drove Justin back to his car. He seemed interested in going camping with us. I wonder if that will happen?

We headed back to the hotel. I packed most of my things and went to bed. We sorted everything in the morning and we headed to the airport. Later we learned that my medication that had seemed to have never been sent had actually arrived within 24 hours of us but they just never sent me a tracking number – but by the time we found out we were already in New York. So the saga of the meds continues. We got some more out of pocket from a local pharmacy until we can get the one that was sent to Michigan.

I randomly got bumped up to First Class. I was in the first row all by myself. It didn’t actually feel like much of an upgrade but I was reading all the way home, so it was fine. I finished reading “Rock” yesterday? Or maybe the day before? I don’t know. The the first book I’ve finished in ages. I found out there is a sequel or a spin-off or something, which I downloaded but I haven’t started it yet. I had therapy on Tuesday, which went well. I’ve spoken to Katie this week. Aaron’s sister and brother-in-law will be arriving tomorrow for a weekend of fun.

I’m behind on all my TV shows. So many. I’m watching “Daredevil” (Season 3), rewatched Star Trek: Discovery (on Season 3 of that too), I’m 2 episodes behind on “The Vampire Lestat”, with a third arriving this Sunday. I’m 3 episodes behind on “X-Men ’97”. I’m 7 episodes behind on “Spider-Noir”. I’m sure there’s more. It’s starting to bother me though. I just never seem to have time, despite staying mostly indoors this week due to the heatwave.

I’ve continued to eat healthy since I got home. In Michigan I had McDonald’s a couple of times, and had some chips. But I also had smoothies and egg whites while I was there, which was nice. I feel like there’s more but I’m so tired, I just want to go to bed.

Aaron and I continued our Re-Trek with TNG S03E05 “The Bonding”, which continues the streak of good or great Season 3 episodes. I had some minor quibbles. Deanna Troi’s heterosexist comment of a future wife for Jeremy Astor felt outdated and annoying. How spoiled I have become by modern Trek! There were a few other bits, the most glaring being that Jeremy Astor is set up to be a recurring character of a sort but he never even mentioned again, or at least not that I can remember. It feels like a rare misstep with Worf’s storylines. This also felt like the first of the Deanna / Worf storylines, which continue throughout the series. I look forward to seeing more soon, but I doubt we’ll be able to see any until after this weekend, unfortunately.

Today’s song quote title comes from “Sexy Nerd” by Jonny McGovern; a song from his 2012 album “The Gayest of All Time”, which started playing on my phone as I was finishing this post. It’s on a playlist I made on Amazon Music titled “LGBTQ”.


“I, Your Willing Victim”

After the last entry, I was hungry. I was getting ready for bed but I was hungry and I tried to have a light snack, but then I had another, and another. Nothing was too much on its own, and all of it was healthy, it was just too much for me to really lay down, so I stayed up until 2am, making sure everything was good. It was a dumb mistake, but it wasn’t the end of the world. I did sleep well when I finally got to bed. But before I drifted off I started re-reading a book I’ve read several times before. Again, I’ve not finished a book in years and I don’t know that I’ll finish this one. But here we are.

Aaron was meant to drive me a Doctor’s appointment today but he had a lot of unexpected work and he was pressed for time. He said he’d pay for an uber to take me, but I was pretty sure I could make it on the train. I got ready. While getting ready I had the urge to speak to my mom, which doesn’t happen often, but when it does it can be intensely sad. It wasn’t too bad. I noted it, said a little “prayer” to her and texted my sister about it. Then I finished getting ready and headed out. I wasn’t allowed to have any metal on me so I had to take out all my jewelry.

I took the A train from 181st down to 42nd / Times Square, where I caught the E train over to the east side for my appointment. I didn’t have to wait long for any of the trains and none of them were crowded, which was nice. I listened to music. I got to my appointment at the NYU Langone location on at 159 E 53rd street (New York, NY. 10022-4602), on the 6th floor. I’m always impressed that this office is peppered with LGBTQ+ PRIDE Flags. I was an hour early. I got in. They gave me a gown for the bone density test and then I waited about 20 minutes. The test took about a half hour. I got dressed an headed out.

It was raining when I left. The forecast had told me it likely would but I would have known anyways because I had the familiar throbbing in my skull. It wasn’t too bad though and the subway was less than half a block from the door of the building I was in so I didn’t get my umbrella out. On the E train a seemingly queer woman sat next to me and complimented me on my PRIDE hat. We spoke during the 4 stops that I was on the train and then I was off to the A train, which was a bit more crowded but I still had a place to sit. When we got to 181st street I took the long escalator up to the street where it was pouring. I got my umbrella out this time and started for home, but my head didn’t hurt anymore and I felt a lot better. I stopped into a grocery store where I got some Baby Arugula + some Kiwis. When I got home had a pita bread with what I had left of my salad from the other day. Aaron had me help him with some stuff he was doing. I had another snack while I watched some reactors watch the last 3 episodes of Andor and eventually I took an unplanned for nap.

Oh. Also on the train home, I had a moment where a woman sitting next to me made me think of Candace Hawkins. She was a coworker of mine at Hollywood Video back in the day. Everyone seemed to love her. She was murdered a couple of years ago but a man she’d been seeing. It was a horrible at the time, but it also felt very far removed from me. Thinking of her on the train, it hit harder than it had before and I cried for a minute. Then I texted another Hollywood friend, D.J., who had been her brother-in-law. It was sad, but it was also a nice exchange. He told me he loved me and he missed my hugs. All my life people have complimented me on the way that I hug. I told him we might be able to arrange such a hug this week, but it’s unclear if that will happen or not.

Since the nap, I’ve had a nice chat with Matt Habel-Graham. We dated briefly in early 2004. We seldom speak, but this was good. Complimentary, compassionate, and amusing. But I’m winding down again. I may have another smoothie or something but I think I’m done for the day.

Today’s journal title song quote is from “Just Give Me a Reason” by American singer and songwriter Alecia Beth “P!NK” Moore-Hart’s 2012 sixth studio album, “The Truth About Love”. The song is a duet with another American singer and songwriter, Nathaniel “Nate” Joseph Ruess. It’s been in my head all day due to my starting to re-read that book last night, Anyta Sunday’s “Rock”, which concerns a love affair between two brothers over the course of their lives. I don’t know why I love it so much, but I do. And when I read it the first time, I often listened to this song on repeat, so I still associate them with one another.

Actually, I read this book (which apparently has a new cover, seen on the right here) to Aaron in the car once, on a long car trip. He cried with me during it. lol So at least he thought it was good too. But it’s a dumb gay romance novel, with incestuous overtones and the copy I have feature some mistakes – but I find it charming. I read another book by her but I didn’t like it half as much.

Okay. I should get ready for bed. Or have that smoothie. Something.



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