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May 15, 2026May 15, 2026

“You Just Might See A Ghost Tonight”

On May 13, Wednesday morning my therapist reached out and asked if we might meet at 1:50, rather than 2pm as she had another obligation. I agreed. Usually when I have something scheduled later in the day I don’t go out at all because I never know what will happen and I’m worried I’ll miss what I have planned, but it was expected to rain later and I really wanted to get outside again and to the park. I told myself not to worry because really I just needed to get outside and I didn’t have to go far. When I got outside I headed to Starbucks. I got a larger drink than what I usually get these days; I got an iced grande dirty soy chai and I guess from Tuesday’s trip that I could probably get to the park and home before my appointment. I walked to the park up Fort Washington. On Tuesday I had cut through the 181st Street station, which has an elevator that takes you up the hill I was now walking up, but it was fine. I walked by Bennett Park and nearly stopped there but I just kept going.

The weather was nicer than I expected and I was in a good mood. Fort Tryon Park has long been my favorite NYC park and it’s just so beautiful. I didn’t stay in the park long though, because again, there was an expectation of rain, an appointment I needed to attend, and along with all that, I inhaled a beautiful flowery scent that seemed to be lilacs, though I couldn’t see any – only for this to cause me to start coughing, which I couldn’t stop. I was very grateful that I got that beverage and that I’d barely sipped it on my walk because it helped on my way home. I had taken the A Train home the previous day as it’s part of my therapy to ride trains, but even though I felt up to walking I took the train for all the reasons I just listed for not staying in the park. It was the right call. I was able to get home, get cleaned up and prepare for my appointment, which went very well.

I didn’t go out after that. I just relaxed. I did watch the “The Punisher: One Last Kill”, which I enjoyed. It made me cry. It’s brutal but so is the character, and my only real complaints were that it felt too similar to earlier Punisher stories even if it made a point of taking the character in a new direction and that it had very few ties to any of the other Marvel stories featuring the character of late. But everything else was impressive and a counter argument could also be made for what was or wasn’t onscreen, so I think it works.

For the record, I think my preferred viewing order for 2027 set M.C.U. projects goes like this:

01 Daredevil: Born Again Season 1 (9 episodes)
02 Captain America: Brave New World
03 The Punisher: One Last Kill
04 The Fantastic 4: First Steps
05 Daredevil: Born Again Season 2 (8 episodes)
06 Thunderbolts*

I slept well, more or less Wednesday. I slept well into the morning, getting up around 9:30am. Aaron was gone for the day. Another report about rain on the way and lower temperatures, I again wanted to get to the park. I took the A train there and back as I wasn’t really dressed for the weather but didn’t want to change and I had some pain in my ankles, that comes and goes, which I plan on talking to my doctor about at our appointment next month. Again, I didn’t stay long at the park. It was more about getting outside. And this marked 13 days out in a row! So that was nice. And I later learned that I’ve lost a pound. That’s a big accomplishment for me. I’ve never once tried to lose weight before, so to see any success is really nice. And while it’s only a pound, I bet other health related things have also improved, given the changes in my diet and being more active.

Once I was home, I was home for the day. I later traded texts with Nathan, which is the first we’ve spoken since Sunday. We seem to be getting along, which is nice. I worked on my site a bit. I’m getting a lot done, but it’s all on stuff that I can’t display until it’s DONE and there’s still so much to do. That’s a little frustrating.

I slept well again. Very well. I also lingered in the bedroom for longer than I expected because Aaron begged me for cuddles. lol I had a smoothie when I finally stumbled out of bed. It’s sunny outside, which is nice. I don’t love being in the sun, but I prefer sunny to overcast.

I just found out I’m in a talent show tomorrow. Aaron says I should read a poem but I’m not sure which piece I should do. I’ll try to look that over, but I’m getting a migraine. That’s sucks, but it’s also been great not having any in several days, and this just means my medication is working. I used to have them nearly every day and the medication I take cuts whatever number you have in half, so I’m likely due for one. I’ll take something for it in a minute. I have so many things I want to do and work on today. We’ll see how that ends up.

We’re leaving for Florida next week. I knew it was happening but it’s creeped up on me all the same. Hopefully that goes well. I realized this morning I’d have to not work on my site while I’m there because my laptop is dead and I can’t take this computer with me (it’s huge) and I can’t really get a lot done via my phone. But Aaron just assured me that we’ll find something that works. He’s brilliant, so I don’t doubt that we’ll find an answer.

Okay. I should get moving.

Today’s lyric headline comes from the song “Emperor’s New Clothes” by Panic! At The Disco, from their 2016 album, “Death of a Bachelor”.

May 12, 2026May 12, 2026

“Taking Different Roads…”

I slept for more than 8 hours, going to bed around 10 and not fully waking up until around 8. And the morning was filled with Aaron cuddles! If I can get outside today that will be 10 days in a row, which, aside from trips to other places in the world, I don’t think has happened in years! I apparently have a therapy appointment tomorrow? My therapist supposedly had surgery and was off for 3 weeks, but I saw her 2 weeks ago, so I was not expecting this. But if true (and not a clinical error) then it will be fun to tell her about all these personal victories.

**Still getting ready for bed. 05-11-26.**

The Punisher: One Last Kill will be released tonight, which will hopefully answer some questions regarding his absence in Season 2 of Daredevil: Born Again. But today is also Disney / Marvel’s entry at the Upfronts, which means there will likely be news of several upcoming Marvel projects, though I’m not sure how much of that news will leak or if any of it will be all that interesting. We’ll have to wait and see. The project I’m most interested in is “VisionQuest”, but I’m interested in everything to some degree. The next Marvel thing to come out will be Sony / Marvel’s Amazon series “Spider-Noir”, which streams its first season in full on May 27, the day after we return from Florida. Then “Spider-Man: Brand New Day” will be released to theaters in July. We’ll likely get “X-Men 97′ Season 2”, then “Your Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Man Season 2”, then “VisionQuest” after May but before December. In December, “Avengers: Doomsday” hits theaters. In 2027 we have “Daredevil: Born Again Season 3”, “Spider-Man: Beyond the Spider-Verse” “X-Men 97′ Season 3”, “Your Friendly Neighborhood Spider-Man Season 3” & “Avengers: Secret Wars”.

We’re going to Florida from May 20 – May 26. We need to see how our house there is doing in the wake of some drama, plus we like to go there when we can so it’s part work, part vacation, and assuming the house is doing well, it could be a relaxing time for me because I love our house there and the times we’ve spent there.

I should try to eat soon. Looks like a high of about 65 this evening? Nice. Maybe I’ll walk to the park. Or a park. I’ve been trying to get to Fort Tryon this year, but I’ve also been tempted to revisit The Highline. For awhile, I was going there pretty often but it has now been several years. I don’t think I’ve been there since before the pandemic, so at least 7 years. Crazy.

I name my blog posts with quotes from songs that I share via Spotify, but they aren’t showing up today – the songs, which make me nervous that one day they will fail to appear at all. For the record this was “Love Will Tear Us Apart” by Joy Division.

May 9, 2026May 10, 2026

“Just one beat of your heart…”

Our trip to Allentown, Pennsylvania was a success. We picked up our friend Joanna from Starbucks and off we went across the GWB, into NJ and on to Pennsylvania, where we attended the Lehigh Valley Chorale’s 10th Anniversary concert, “The Road Home”, which was wonderfully quirky and really inspiring. The show was held at the Miller Symphony Hall (23 N 6th Street · Allentown PA 18101), a really great space! The director, Nick, who we all agreed, knocked it out of the park, will be coming in to lead the Stonewall Chorale over the next year and then carry the choir forward after Cynthia resigns. This was the first time I’d ever really spoken to Joanna but I’d seen her perform with the choir many times. We had other friends coming to the show but they were caught in traffic so they missed the first act. After the show I got to meet Nick and then Aaron, Joanna, Emily, Linda and their daughter and I all headed for our reservation at Simpatico (27 N 7th St, Allentown, PA 18101), an Italian restaurant, where our company was fantastic, our food was delicious, and our waiter smelled really bad. Oh well. I had never met Linda and this was the first time I really got to talk to her and her wife. They’re big Star Wars / Marvel fans and I loved talking to them about queer cinema.

After the restaurant we said goodnight and drove Joanna back to the city and returned home. Aaron and I had a great conversation about where we are, where we are headed, and how our goals, which had been diverted during the pandemic of 2020 could finally be continued now and I’m here for it! I know he’s excited and so am I. But I’m tired. So I showered and started getting ready for bed.

May 8, 2026

“And it does not hurt…”

I had another productive day. No cleaning, but I did upload about 40 poems and got a massive amount finished on the Marvel Multiverse viewing order (draft) which will one day be living here. I also got outside again. That’s 6 days in a row. I hadn’t been out 5 days in a row in months (at the very least) but 6 days seems like a miracle and I have plans to head to Pennsylvania with Aaron tomorrow, so hopefully that all goes well and I’m outside again. It means a lot to me, but I also feel a little embarrassed that my life has gotten so insular that this feels like such a huge win. But it is!

They released some more promotional art for this Tuesday’s Punisher Special Presentation, which of course I used in a collage, because when don’t I?

As far as food goes, I had a bit that wasn’t so great. I mean, I had junk food. I had chips. And later I had some garlic bread with chia seeds. But I also had 2 smoothies. I also drank a lot of water, which I also had yesterday. Tomorrow food will be…interesting, and possibly challenging as I’ll be a in a group of mostly strangers. I’ll probably have a smoothie before we leave but Aaron has seen to it that we’re going out for Italian food after and there’s a Pizza Margherita where we’re going and I usually do pretty well with those. Thanks Aaron! He scoped all the options out in advance. I just thanked him out loud and gave him a kiss.

I’m very tired. But I’ve been awake since about 3am. I will likely at least get ready for bed soon. I want to try calling Mark Adams first though. We’ve not spoken in a few days and I want to hear his thoughts on Daredevil.

April 29, 2026

“It’s time to wakeup!”

I woke up with a thought about Daredevil. Last week I felt there had been a reference to “Thunderbolts*”, meaning that the series, or that episode of the series, took place after that film. But this week, that reference seems likely to have actually been about Luke Cage and possibly Iron Fist – definitely the former, and I suspect we’ll soon learn about the latter, which means that “Thunderbolts*” might actually take place directly after this season – which probably seems like a mundane realization, but these little connections hit me and I get excited. I’m a comic-book movie nerd who loves putting things in order. What can I say?

Daredevil: Born Again Season 1
Captain America: Brave New World
The Fantastic Four: First Steps
Daredevil: Born Again Season 2
Thunderbolts*

Again, I’m curious to see how The Punisher: One Last Kill ties in, along with Spider-Man: Brand New Day and various other upcoming projects.

Also, another revelation. I’m going to see if I can install a thumbs up feature on my site. Or maybe multiple options but all of them positive. Then the people that come here, whom I can’t see and mostly don’t interact with, could leave a thumbs up, giving me the slightest bit of positivity. I don’t need to know who doesn’t like things. I don’t have the stomach for the toxic interactions that are now commonplace online. When I had my original site, people would message me and I maybe had 2 negative messages but far more positive interactions. I don’t believe that would be the case now, which is why my contact info isn’t splattered across the pages the way it used to be, and why there are no comment sections.

April 20, 2026April 20, 2026

“No One Knows Anyone Else”

Yesterday was lazy. Partially because I woke up with a migraine due to the weather. I briefly played Mario Galaxy with Aaron, but I spent most of the day working on my website. I still struggle to find the right things to make everything look the way that I want it, so I’m constantly experimenting and learning, which is a lot more exhausting than I had hoped. Also, I added a visitor counter the other day and it said I had 40 some visitors yesterday. I assumed this was just me doing edits and being counted multiple times but signing in to write this it said I’d had 16 visitors today, so maybe people actually are already coming here. That was fast. I assumed it would take much longer for people to find me. But I hope whoever they are that they’re enjoying this place. I used to get such interesting e-mails from people all over, but I haven’t included any contact information here and I’ve disabled posts. I had a placeholder post or two when I tried to do this a few years ago and the mountains of spam I got were out of control, so I’d rather have nothing than that shit.

I slept really well. I had good dreams which I only vaguely remember. Aaron is getting ready and getting packed. He’s leaving for Los Angeles today and won’t be back for nearly a week.

Aaron clearly wants us to see the rerelease of Avengers: Endgame in September, which will feature new footage tied into Avengers: Doomsday. I’m interested in going too, which surprises me. I’ve hated going to movie theaters ever since cell phones started popping up everywhere. I get distracted by the smallest things and miss huge chunks of the movies I’ve paid to see. We’ve had a few good experiences in the last few years, but none of them have been in Manhattan. Thankfully we have a car and live close to New Jersey.

I will likely work on getting some of my Marvel themed stuff online today. But honestly there are million more things to do. I still have at least 1,000 poems to upload, which will be even longer if I do artwork for all of them. We’ll see.

When I woke up in was in the high 30s, which is a bit chilly. It was 85 last week. It should be in the low 50s later. I’ll probably go get some food around that time. Until then I should have a smoothie.

I used to think it was quite sad that nobody ever really knows anyone else, but I think in the long run that it might actually be for the better. Time to move.

Oh! And I need to message my friend Nicole back! She texted me the other day and asked me some questions but I hate typing long messages on my phone. lol I’ll do that ASAP.

April 19, 2026

“Til They Play the Last Song”

I had a dream last night that I was fucking Aaron, which, for the record, I have never done. He’s a top. I’m a bottom. That’s how it goes. But in the dream we both liked it.

Yesterday I started watching some stuff that I’ve wanted to see for a long time but haven’t gotten around to. “Daredevil” Season 3 has been on the backburner for 7.5 years, but with the new season of “Daredevil: Born Again” finally getting exceptionally good, and with plenty of ties to the old show, I’m finally ready to see it. I also started watching “Tales of the City”. I’ve seen the original miniseries once, but it’s been a long time, and I’ve never seen the 3 sequel seasons, but I have access to all of them now, so here we go. I’m also still watching a lot of other things like “The Lord of the Rings: The Rings of Power”, which I hopefully won’t quit again (as I have done twice in the past) because I really am enjoying it now, I just have a hard time staying focused on any one thing.

I’d write more but I should get to bed. Aaron actually told me earlier that he sleeps better when I’m in there with him, which he’s never told me before, so I didn’t know. I sometimes sleep better on my own, but when he’s away on trips and things, I do miss him more when he’s not in the bed and won’t be returning for days at a time.

I have “Mandolin Rain” stuck in my head. I’m not sure why. I don’t mind though, because I love that song. I used to have the album as a cassette tape.

April 16, 2026

“The Circus We’re In”

slept very well. Then I cuddled with Aaron for 2 hours. I feel good. But I dreaded reading last night’s post as I really was tripping – but hey, it’s not bad! I have an on and off addiction to sleeping pills. I’ve been cutting back a bit. And this has made them hit me much harder. I say that like I’m tripping acid, and I can only imagine how hard that would hit me because I’m very much a lightweight. When Ambien hits me hard I see pretty colors and if I’m reading, the words drift off the page. That was happening last night while I was typing and it was like the words were floating out of the screen, which is when I realized what was happening. lol It hasn’t hit me like that in years.

I really am into Tori Amos’s “From the Choirgirl Hotel”, which again, was an album I listened to a lot when I was creating the original gothboy.com website. I keep going back to it. She has a new album that I haven’t listened too yet, but I’m content with this one for now.

I think I’m losing weight. I haven’t lost a lot, I’m sure, but I feel like I’m losing weight, which was a goal of mine, but not one that I’ve given a lot of thought to. I have a very complicated relationship with food. I have PTSD which is tied into food. And beyond that I was also raised in an environment where my education related to food was far from normal. And on top of all of that, I have idiopathic gastroparesis, or at least I’ve been told that I do – there is another diagnosis which I can’t remember, but they’re similar and it actually might be both. So it’s complicated.

I am, however, making healthier choices of late. I was eating a lot of ice cream over the last several years. I think 3 quarts a week was my average? I’ve totally cut ice cream from my diet, which doesn’t mean I won’t potentially have it at Dairy Queen or something, but that I don’t keep any at home. Instead I drink smoothies, which means I replaced something unhealthy with something far more useful, which gives me everything I got from the ice cream but with none of the negative side effects. I’ve also cut way back on bread. I’m still eating bread, but less. Less cheese as well. For over a year I added cheese to nearly everything. To be fair, I was also adding chia seeds and flax seeds, but now I’m eating less cheese and just as many of the seeds. I also started buying fresh kiwi and snacking on that, which I’d wanted to do for years, which must sound strange, but again, my relationship with food is complicated. Oh, and the smoothies mean I’m having fruit every day! Which was definitely NOT the case before. And beyond the food choices, I’m starting to get out a lot more. Since the pandemic in 2020, I’ve mostly been a hermit when I’m in New York. I would maybe leave home 4 or 5 times a month, but there were times when I wouldn’t go outside for weeks at a time. But it is now April 16 and I’ve been outside 9 times this month and I have plans to go out tonight. I went out on the 14th as well, to pick up a pizza. Cheese and bread! But again, I’m eating far less and a healthier variety. For about a year we’ve been getting Little Caesars where we get 2 pizzas, one of them being the pretzel crust, which has so much salt that it has a warning on it! We had them delivered, always, so due to the cost we had to spend more to save a little on the delivery. But now I’m walking to the store, picking up one pizza, not two, and not getting the pretzel crust – saving money, getting exercise, eating less and eating healthier. And still having a pizza. But I have a slice, maybe two a day so it lasts just under a week.

Speaking of outside. I went for a walk yesterday. I was planning on going to my favorite park, Fort Tryon, but it was a bit later than I planned on and then just as I was getting ready to leave there were a flurry of messages from Aaron and Glenn about tonight’s events. I did try to go to the park but decided I’d take the train rather than walk there, only the train was late and I decided to just walk home so I could get myself a ticket to a show tonight, if I needed one. I stopped and got those kiwis on the way home at a new neighborhood market. I got all the things ready. I had a smoothie. Later as a snack I had some green olives, pecans, & sunflower seeds. I played some Zelda (Breath of the Wild) and then got ready for bed, which is when I posted last night.

Aaron and I have been chatting while he gets ready for work. He just looked over my shoulder and saw how I was organizing this post and told me he liked what I was doing: “I see what you’re doing. I’m picking up what you’re putting down. That’s a very handsome man on that subway!” lol

I’m looking forward to going out tonight. I’ll likely leave here shortly after 6. I’m meeting Glenn for a reservation at Serafina in midtown at 7. Then we need to be at 54 Below at 9, for the 9:30 show; the venue is just a few blocks away so we should be fine. And then the show is from 9:30 to 10:30 with another show at 11 so the venue needs to clear out quickly, and I’ll catch a ride home with Aaron and another one of the judges.

Right. So after Glenn asked if we could meet today, Aaron told me our friend Christian was having a concert that night but I figured I should keep my plans with Glenn so I told Aaron I wasn’t going. Then yesterday Glenn asked if I’d like to go to that same show with him! It felt fated at that point. I mean, Glenn didn’t even realize that I knew Christian or that Aaron would be there! lol It’s so funny. But I’m happy it worked out this way. Aaron and I chilled with Christian last month after a Stonewall Chorale concert.

I’ve never hung out with Glenn one on one, which seems odd, in retrospect. I’ve hung out with his ex-wife a few times (who I adore). I usually see Glenn at parties or shows, but there have been smaller gatherings. I met him in passing in 2014, but didn’t officially meet him until August of that year, when we saw him in “The Magic Flute” on Martha’s Vineyard, which was my first opera; I just saw my 14th opera a few weeks ago. We stayed in the same house. Aaron, Glenn, his kids, and there were others there too. We swam in the ocean, near where “Jaws” was filmed. This was the weekend of August 1st, 2014. I know because Aaron and I always try to see the new Marvel films on opening night and we missed the opening of “Guardians of the Galaxy” to be on the island. Glenn and islands. I hadn’t thought of that before. We met in passing in Manhattan, then Martha’s Vineyard, and we’ve visited him twice on Mackinac Island, where his family has a home. Funny.

Anyways, I’m excited for tonight. But, speaking of Marvel, tonight Marvel will be presenting at CinemaCon and I was hoping to just sit at home and take in the news, but I’m skipping Marvel to chill with Glenn and company. History repeating itself. lol

April 15, 2026April 15, 2026

Daredevil has been Born Again!

I woke up early yesterday morning. I watched Star Wars: Maul – Shadow Lord S01E03 (“Chapter 3: Whispers in the Unknown”) and started S01E04 (“Chapter 4: Pride and Vengeance”) before getting distracted by a stray thought about how my sister Janice recently told me that she doesn’t enjoy Star Wars much, which I thought was odd. But then I remembered that I didn’t like it much either until I started reading the books. And then watching The Clone Wars and the other shows as they were released and I think that’s key for me, because that’s where all the character development really happens. I mean, there are so many background characters who just die without being named on screen in “Revenge of the Sith” but The Clone Wars develops all of those characters so losing them because far more tragic. That kind of thing really helped. So I started making a list for her of the things to watch, which I worked on for like 40 minutes before stopping, realizing that my sister would never watch this stuff! lol

I returned to bed soon after to cuddle with Aaron before he left for work. Later, I took some photos with my once fancy, but 20 year old camera. I went to therapy. I read the news. I walked to Little Caesars for a pizza. I talked on the phone with my cousin Katie, my friend Mark Adams and finally my grandmother. Later I snapped a few more pictures and started getting ready for bed. I still haven’t gone to the bedroom though because my sleeping medication hasn’t really been working well the last few nights which means I need to give it a break. It will good for me. But it also means I can’t just fall asleep quickly and so I’m awake. So I watched the new Daredevil episode.

Daredevil: Born Again. Season 1 was a mixed bag which I felt was due to creative issues behind the scenes, so I cut them some slack. I was assured that Season 2 would be the series at its best, only to have the first 3 episodes leave me disappointed again. But episodes 4 & 5 have been incredible! These 2 episodes have easily been the best of the entire series to date. I cried. There are 3 more episodes this season and Season 3 is filming now, likely to be released about a year from now.

I have the Star Wars episode to finish. I have 2 more episodes in Season 1 of The Lord of the Rings: The Rings of Power. I have one more season to watch of His Dark Materials. Euphoria Season 3 started on Sunday but I think I might wait and binge that when it’s finished. There are many shows that I’ve started and not finished, which I’d like to, it has just all piled up now over years that I don’t know that I ever will get to a lot of it.

I read the news out of Cinemacon. So many release dates announced. So much movie news in the last 48 hours. I love this stuff. And Disney is closing out the convention on Thursday, likely with news of “Avengers: Doomsday”, so I’m looking forward to that.

But I am actually getting tired. I may try to sleep.

April 9, 2026April 9, 2026

“I’m not seeking penance for what I’ve done, Father. I’m asking forgiveness, for what I’m about to do.”

I watched the latest episode of Daredevil: Born Again (S02E04 “Gloves Off”). This series for me has been extremely problematic. Subpar directing, special effects, a cobbled together feel that has just left me feeling a little underwhelmed. I’d heard reports from sources that I trust that the first 3 episodes this season were bad but that starting with episode 4 things improved drastically. I wasn’t sure I believed the last bit but they were right. At least about this episode.

This is the first really great episode of this series. It was fantastic in ways that previous episodes could have / should have been. The effects and direction were on point. The character dynamics which have been lacking (Matt / Karen) felt far more successful here. Everything seemed of a piece with no crazy editing. This was a such a pleasant surprise! More of this PLEASE! Again, I’ve heard that the final 4 episodes are all very good and someone told me that the finale is “fire” (in a good way) so I’m finally getting excited about this.

They also released a trailer and 2nd poster for the upcoming Punisher Special Presentation, “The Punisher: One Last Kill”, which looks good. I do hope the special explains where Frank has been and how he ends up in the upcoming Spider-Man movie.