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A Work in Progress…Welcome Back!
In 9 days it will be 1 month
since I “left”.
I scan through through the posts;
occasionally commenting on other people’s shit.
I don’t miss sharing with these people;
not really. Instead I call or write or see.
I feel more visible now than I did before,
despite not knowing if anyone is watching.
Perhaps I’m actually invisible
and it only seems that the whole world is watching?
Time will tell if she’s kind.
Written by Jason Wright
May 20, 2026
I didn’t do much today. I struggled with a migraine, but really I just made a series of bad choices this week that eventually overwhelmed everything else. Sometimes a bad choice is better than no choice at all, which I find comforting tonight, but I hope to make better choices in the near future.
Aaron has an endoscopy scheduled for tomorrow so I’ll be going to the hospital with him and seeing that he gets home, and that will be most of tomorrow for me. He also told me that we may be going to Florida in a few weeks. We have a home there that we rent out, which had been occupied by a family, but they skipped out without paying us and so that means a court battle and also means we need to go see how the apartment is doing. We’ve had good times there and I wasn’t sure we’d ever go again as this family had, for a time, wanted to purchase our property, but I bet they’re glad they didn’t now.
I’m oddly very tired, which is fine with me. I need to be up tomorrow anyways, so I might as well sleep tonight. I don’t have anything I need to get done. I don’t need to work on my website.
I posted on Facebook yesterday that I’m feeling really burnt out there, and that’s true. I deleted something like 100 posts there today. I don’t want to give it up as it connects me with so many people, but I don’t want to spend as much time there as I have in the past. It’s not political exactly. It’s not a reaction to this or that thing. But it’s not as much fun as it used to be and when I see all the shit that I’ve posted that doesn’t actually seem to matter, I find it a little embarrassing.
I should have gone to bed hours ago, but I needed a shower. And I do some of my best thinking in the shower. And I was thinking about all these interesting things and I thought I might like to write about them. So I did. And I put some artwork together and posted it here. And then I posted it on Facebook. And now I’m writing about doing those things, which is probably redundant.
Shawn Foreman sent me a friend request on Facebook. I didn’t approve it right away because I assumed it was a hack as we’ve been friends on Facebook for years, but when I looked, we were not friends anymore, so I’m assuming this is the real deal. We’ll see. I should let him know that Goth Boy is back.
I’m very tired and I don’t think I’ll need anything to sleep, but if I do, that’s fine. I did not go outside yesterday. I got ready. I shaved. But I didn’t need to go anywhere and my energy levels felt off, so I didn’t go out. The only reason that bothers me is that I’ve not been out since Monday and I don’t want to fall back into bad habits. I did however get a lot done on my website. And I also got to catch up with Aaron on the phone, which was nice.
Time for sleep.
I’ve been meaning to get a new website up and running for ages. I tried multiple times. Aaron even hired this or that person to design one for me. There were consultations and discussions of payment, content, etc. but in the end everything failed.
Until now.
I’ve been working on transferring poetry and art from Facebook. I liked Facebook a lot in the beginning and it improved even further before it all went to shit. Politics. Drama. Censorship. But it’s become my main outlet and connection to so many people. I’m hoping to change that. And I also just desperately need something to pour my creative energy into, and this may be it. I’ve made so much progress in this last week. So much more than anything I’ve tried in years. It feels good.