After the last entry, I was hungry. I was getting ready for bed but I was hungry and I tried to have a light snack, but then I had another, and another. Nothing was too much on its own, and all of it was healthy, it was just too much for me to really lay down, so I stayed up until 2am, making sure everything was good. It was a dumb mistake, but it wasn’t the end of the world. I did sleep well when I finally got to bed. But before I drifted off I started re-reading a book I’ve read several times before. Again, I’ve not finished a book in years and I don’t know that I’ll finish this one. But here we are.
Aaron was meant to drive me a Doctor’s appointment today but he had a lot of unexpected work and he was pressed for time. He said he’d pay for an uber to take me, but I was pretty sure I could make it on the train. I got ready. While getting ready I had the urge to speak to my mom, which doesn’t happen often, but when it does it can be intensely sad. It wasn’t too bad. I noted it, said a little “prayer” to her and texted my sister about it. Then I finished getting ready and headed out. I wasn’t allowed to have any metal on me so I had to take out all my jewelry.
I took the A train from 181st down to 42nd / Times Square, where I caught the E train over to the east side for my appointment. I didn’t have to wait long for any of the trains and none of them were crowded, which was nice. I listened to music. I got to my appointment at the NYU Langone location on at 159 E 53rd street (New York, NY. 10022-4602), on the 6th floor. I’m always impressed that this office is peppered with LGBTQ+ PRIDE Flags. I was an hour early. I got in. They gave me a gown for the bone density test and then I waited about 20 minutes. The test took about a half hour. I got dressed an headed out.
It was raining when I left. The forecast had told me it likely would but I would have known anyways because I had the familiar throbbing in my skull. It wasn’t too bad though and the subway was less than half a block from the door of the building I was in so I didn’t get my umbrella out. On the E train a seemingly queer woman sat next to me and complimented me on my PRIDE hat. We spoke during the 4 stops that I was on the train and then I was off to the A train, which was a bit more crowded but I still had a place to sit. When we got to 181st street I took the long escalator up to the street where it was pouring. I got my umbrella out this time and started for home, but my head didn’t hurt anymore and I felt a lot better. I stopped into a grocery store where I got some Baby Arugula + some Kiwis. When I got home had a pita bread with what I had left of my salad from the other day. Aaron had me help him with some stuff he was doing. I had another snack while I watched some reactors watch the last 3 episodes of Andor and eventually I took an unplanned for nap.
Oh. Also on the train home, I had a moment where a woman sitting next to me made me think of Candace Hawkins. She was a coworker of mine at Hollywood Video back in the day. Everyone seemed to love her. She was murdered a couple of years ago but a man she’d been seeing. It was a horrible at the time, but it also felt very far removed from me. Thinking of her on the train, it hit harder than it had before and I cried for a minute. Then I texted another Hollywood friend, D.J., who had been her brother-in-law. It was sad, but it was also a nice exchange. He told me he loved me and he missed my hugs. All my life people have complimented me on the way that I hug. I told him we might be able to arrange such a hug this week, but it’s unclear if that will happen or not.
Since the nap, I’ve had a nice chat with Matt Habel-Graham. We dated briefly in early 2004. We seldom speak, but this was good. Complimentary, compassionate, and amusing. But I’m winding down again. I may have another smoothie or something but I think I’m done for the day.
Today’s journal title song quote is from “Just Give Me a Reason” by American singer and songwriter Alecia Beth “P!NK” Moore-Hart’s 2012 sixth studio album, “The Truth About Love”. The song is a duet with another American singer and songwriter, Nathaniel “Nate” Joseph Ruess. It’s been in my head all day due to my starting to re-read that book last night, Anyta Sunday’s “Rock”, which concerns a love affair between two brothers over the course of their lives. I don’t know why I love it so much, but I do. And when I read it the first time, I often listened to this song on repeat, so I still associate them with one another.
Actually, I read this book (which apparently has a new cover, seen on the right here) to Aaron in the car once, on a long car trip. He cried with me during it. lol So at least he thought it was good too. But it’s a dumb gay romance novel, with incestuous overtones and the copy I have feature some mistakes – but I find it charming. I read another book by her but I didn’t like it half as much.
Okay. I should get ready for bed. Or have that smoothie. Something.
